My own personality was shape by my position in my family

I am the oldest one in my family, and I consider that this position have shape my personality for the way my parents raised me, the relation with my sibilants and my perfectionist side.

My parents teach me a lot of thing, like be respectful, do all my homework, take are of all my things, the must important, they teach me how to be independent. When I was young, my mom used to tell me that I need to learn how to cook or how to do anything by myself because one day I must be became in a mother or a wife and I always be mad because I do not want to do all that stuffs, but now I can realized that I can do anything by myself and that is a huge different between my others sibilants. With my youngest brothers my parents were so tired that they do not want to teach the same way as they do with me, and now I can see the different.

I love my sibilants, but I got a huge weight on top because I feel that have to take care of them, need to help then and carry on with their problems. An other thing is that I the one who opens many doors to my brother and sister and I am the one who have the face the problems to get what I want, it is hard but I think that’s one of the jobs of the oldest one.

I realized that I am an obsessive person, I need to take care of everything because if I don’t I just think that nothing get well and sometimes I have to check twice. Sounds rear but it is part of my personality and I get use to it. And if something goes bad, I get mad and star hate everybody. But the thru is that I like be like this because I can be more sure of the things that surround me.

But after all, I love to be the first child, even if my parents raise me different or my relation my brother and sisters or even my own defects like my personality, because I know that my family loves my just how I am and it always will. 

Ted talk about Morgana: The danger of hiding who you are

When Morgana was young, she was very outgoing and not afraid to fit into society, but all changes 16 years ago, was when she realized that something was changing inside of her and for this reason she change completely their way of being. she began to hide in the society. 

She realizes that hide is a progressive habit, because as you start is very difficult to stop, and actually even before the dialogue, he lied to the people in the audience.

But it was finally decided to tell the truth in the same city where she grew, and that she was afraid that was known by that word and not simply for what it is, just Morgana. 

Then she talk about a study in 2013 by Deloitte showed that 61% of its appearance changed to fit workers and 83% of gay did not seem very gay.  

She realizes that stress and social stigma are a very bad combination, because increase the risk of developing heart disease, violence and suicide. And then she found that can decrease life expectancy 12 years.

She falling into account that she lost an opportunity to make a big change, 

by not trying to prevent her friend's father vote for a law than association  postulated against service to gay people with the religious foundation, 

as she works in human resources felt much more bad for doing nothing for diversity.

And after all this time it can be concluded that the biggest obstacle is to face your fears and insecurities and right now she will try to face it. 

http://www.ted.com/talks/morgana_bailey_the_danger_of_hiding_who_you_are/transcript?language=en