My own personality was shape by my position in my family

I am the oldest one in my family, and I consider that this position have shape my personality for the way my parents raised me, the relation with my sibilants and my perfectionist side.

My parents teach me a lot of thing, like be respectful, do all my homework, take are of all my things, the must important, they teach me how to be independent. When I was young, my mom used to tell me that I need to learn how to cook or how to do anything by myself because one day I must be became in a mother or a wife and I always be mad because I do not want to do all that stuffs, but now I can realized that I can do anything by myself and that is a huge different between my others sibilants. With my youngest brothers my parents were so tired that they do not want to teach the same way as they do with me, and now I can see the different.

I love my sibilants, but I got a huge weight on top because I feel that have to take care of them, need to help then and carry on with their problems. An other thing is that I the one who opens many doors to my brother and sister and I am the one who have the face the problems to get what I want, it is hard but I think that’s one of the jobs of the oldest one.

I realized that I am an obsessive person, I need to take care of everything because if I don’t I just think that nothing get well and sometimes I have to check twice. Sounds rear but it is part of my personality and I get use to it. And if something goes bad, I get mad and star hate everybody. But the thru is that I like be like this because I can be more sure of the things that surround me.

But after all, I love to be the first child, even if my parents raise me different or my relation my brother and sisters or even my own defects like my personality, because I know that my family loves my just how I am and it always will.